Okay, here’s my blog post about “how can I become straight,” written from a personal, practical perspective:
So, I’ve been down this rabbit hole, asking myself, “Can I just become straight?” It started, honestly, with a lot of confusion and, yeah, some fear. I’m gonna walk you through what I did, step by step, because it wasn’t a simple switch-flip.
The Beginning: Googling Like Crazy
First, I hit Google. Hard. I typed in everything: “how to be straight,” “change my orientation,” “pray away the gay,” you name it. I was desperate for a quick fix, a magic pill, anything.
I found some, um, interesting websites. Some promised miracle cures, some talked about therapy, and some were just plain hateful. It was a mess. I ended up clicking through a lot of those, reading testimonials, and getting my hopes up… only to be let down.
Trying Stuff Out: The “Fake It ‘Til You Make It” Phase
- Dating the Opposite Sex: I went on a few dates with girls. It was… awkward. I tried to force myself to feel something, but it just wasn’t there. It felt like acting, and not very good acting at that.
- Looking at “Straight” Stuff: I’m not gonna lie; I tried looking at, uh, straight adult content. The thinking was, “Maybe if I just see it enough, something will click?” Nope. Just felt weird and uncomfortable.
- “Praying the Gay Away”: I come from a religious background, so I tried this. I went to church, prayed a lot, even talked to a pastor. He was nice enough, but it didn’t change anything. It just made me feel more guilty.
The Realization: It’s Not a Choice.
I kept at that first wave of “trying” for the longest time. I really wanted to not feel that way anymore. It’s hard, it’s so hard. After all that trying and those akward moments, the biggest, most important step was realizing I can’t change who I am.
After all that, after all the trying and failing, I had a moment of clarity. It hit me like a ton of bricks: this isn’t something you can change. It’s not a choice, it’s not a phase, it’s just who I am.
Acceptance and Moving Forward
That realization was both terrifying and liberating. Terrifying because I didn’t know what it meant for my life, my family, my future. Liberating because I finally stopped fighting myself.
I then started searching on Google with different questions. Questions like “How to come out,” “LGBT support groups,” and “gay-affirming therapists.”
It’s still a journey, and it’s not always easy. But it’s my journey. I’m learning to accept myself, to love myself, and to be proud of who I am. And that’s way more important than trying to be someone I’m not.
And, that is everything I have done and tried up till now.
